Back from parkway and my uncle house:D Found a fact about my dad side's family and my mum's side family. Today we woke up early to pay visit to my dad's mum's best friend. WE are supposed to meet all my dad's siblings at 9am there. The carpark there was too crowd so we went the other way which we will have to walk for a distance. When my dad parked his car, he did not know where to walk. So he called his brother, his brother just give a very confused direction and my dad don't bother to ask for more and just say okok.

In the end, we walk without directions but still got there. When we went in to the house, we just seat now and did not talk to all the uncles and aunty. None of them talk too. We just approach the best friend and smile smile shake hands. then we left. As I saw all this going on, I was very very upset. I don't feel the bond between the family members, none of them ask how's life & when my mum ask them how's life, they just gave mono answers like not bad. When all of us leave, we did not say goodbye except for one aunty. one out of so many. The questions begun to revolve around my head, are they part of our family or just strangers whom we don't know each other.

Seriously, I'm not so close to my dad's side than my mum's side. & My mum's side have more warmth and bonding than his. Though there are conflicts sometimes, but I think having conflicts are much more better than having nothing. My mum's side: Most of them smoke, most of them have their own families, some stayed quite close to each other, while some stayed quite far. Meet up often & talk, they sort things out, they help when you need help. They won't leave you alone. My dad's side: None of them smoke, all have their own families, all stayed far far away from each other ; living with their own life. Meet twice a year, seldom talk. Keep things to themselves, believing that they can settle on their own.

I really feel very upset about this as I am closer to my mum's side and my mum has been telling me about what's family about & stuff. It makes me think that family is the best thing you could count on & you will never fall. But today, I realized that things were not what I thought. Not all families are like that. Not all with the bond, with the heart to undersatnd what's happening. & I finally understand that is not easy to keep a family bonding together as one & they could laugh & talk about any matters. Just any.

Went to took my weekly contacts, guess I slept while wearing or something, when I took out, it teared :o Asked JIaqi to help me check if I could purchase another pair somewhere, still waiting for her answer:) Hopefully can. Loads of test coming up next week, good luck to all!